If you don't wanna lose your mind, you have to believe in something

Ja opettajat meistä jo koulussa arvas,

ei tosta porukasta tuu nousee ku harvat,

syntyjään jo pahoilla teillä

Do you know the feeling when you just hate everybody, when you hate the whole world and you really don't have reason to hate it? Well, that feeling have become little too familiar to me nowadays. I think it just because I haven't slept properly in three weeks, or more, I'm not so sure anymore, about anything. 

I don't forget things and I'm really pissed off all the time. When I look back and try to remember things that happened like last week or something, it's just blur. I hate it, I feel so paranoid and I think I'll lose my mind if I can't sleep soon. 

Highschool is stressing me out too much, I don't even remember when I've been as stressed out as I'm now. Mom really doesn't help with her questions about school and exams and reading and stuff.

The most annoying thing in this whole situation is that sometimes I just start cying, with no reason. One day I was walking in city center and suddenly I just started crying, it was so weird. I wasn't thinking of anything, nobody said anything to me and I just cried. It was little embarrassing realize that I'm walking on city center and I'm crying. 

Maybe I just shouldn't leave the house before I have slept properly..  :D. 

And again, I'm sorry that this is only in english and I'm sorry about my bad english. Try to understand what I'm saying. 

Byebye!